The more I think about it, the more I picture myself growing up alone. My reason being because I’ve left all my past relationships for selfish excuses and surprisingly, it was the same reason for each relationship. Knowing this makes me question if I even deserve to have a significant other that can put up with my bullshit and dick-like behavior.
Shit.
I’ve realized now that I’m one of those guys who people hate: the guy who always leaves without any warning or notice and just moves on with his life, giving up and walking away from the situation. I hate myself even more because I despise people who do that especially since I’ve gone through it so many times. And now I’m doing to others what others have done to me. I swear, I’m so fucked up in the head.